Step by step, I try to climb out of the abyss...this black hole which has been sucking the life out of me.  Though the journey's not easy and extremely painful, I have faith that I will be able to make my way out.  I have done it once, I will do it again.  Thank you friends for all your support.

1) Last year, same date, same time, I was in Brisbane...excitingly awaiting the results of the general election.....one year later, here I am, sitting in my room on a Sunday afternoon wondering what to do next.

2) Listening to a song 'Goodbye'...a phrase just struck me...."when tears don't flow anymore, it's time to let go".

3) Choices choices choices...sometimes you just get so sick of it.  Too many choices and you end up in multiple dilemmas...should I take it?  Will opportunity knock twice?  Whatever decision I make, I'm glad that today at the age of 28, I am able to say, I achieved it.

4) Trips....aren't trips supposed to recharge your batteries and make you happier? How come after I returned from Hong Kong, I end up being more depressed?  Thank you Marco, Frances, Max, Vincy, and Hillary for making my HK trip such a memorable one...it will definitely be listed as one of my best trips ever.  Treasure the time we could spend together...getting together again like this may not be feasible in the future.

5) Another big bomb to my wallet soon....received a call from Raymond, my Australian fren this morning...seems that lab values are not good...probably need to do another round of chemo in April...will try to book a ticket to Brisbane in Aug or Sept...Raymond, please wait for me.....

6) Leveling...what a common term these days...I'm so tired of it...whether me being leveled or me leveling another party.  Frustration...that's the word...I don't think I'm so worthless...therefore, I guess I will quit from this game for the time being.

7) Wrote two newspaper articles...wonder when it will be published.

8) Glad that I'm included in a national study...this is make or break time....no room for failure.  I won't disappoint.

9) It's time to pick myself up, refocus, and move on.

Within this blog lies the happenings and memories over the past few years.  My year and a half expedition in Australia is more or less chronicled here.  This blog won't perish...I will not let this blog disappear.  This blog holds too much memories...the song forever etched in my head. 

I have just woke up after a chit-chatting session with the rest of the guys yesterday night.  Today we intend to hit Ministry of Sound in the evening.  There will be some kind of dance competition there.  After that, it's Quattro time...Lok's birthday.  Hmmm...nothing much to look forward to at Quattro.  Know that it's VERY packed...I wonder why it was selected as a birthday venue.  Well, it's time for me to take a bath...time to start this brand new day as fresh as I can.

*knock* *knock*...pheww...have to knock first.  Haven't access my blog for ages...guess it is being inhabited by ghosts already.  It's pretty difficult to blog on xanga nowadays.  It takes AGES, and I really mean ages to load a page.  The reason why I can access it now?  Because it's before 7am and for some reason, it loads better at this hour.

I'm feeling ecstatic these few days.  I'll be in the "Paris of the East" next week, and two weeks after that, I will be in the "Paris of the West".  Can life get any better than this?  I really feel so lucky to be travelling to these 2 great cities within a month.  Ohh, by the way, "Paris of the East" = Shanghai.  That's what they used to call Shanghai last time.  "Paris of the West" = Paris itself lar.  Gonna spend approximately a week in each of these cities.

I'm glad that Pikachu is following me to Shanghai.  It will be such an adventure there.  Plan of hitting Suzhou as well.  And of course our mission of rescuing "Black Lotus" although chances are slim.  For the Paris trip, still waiting for Bangsawan to confirm his availability.  It would be great if he could make it together with me.  Being in the City of Love alone is pretty lonely when I come to think about it.  Well, I will take lots and lots of pictures and hopefully, Xanga won't merajuk when I try to post them up here.  Ciaoz.....

Two days ago, I read an article in the newspaper about a Malaysian student who got bashed up in Melbourne by the Aussies.  This guy was apparently walking alone late at night, actually well past midnight when he was set upon by 4 Australian men.  What caught my attention wasn't the story about him getting bashed up but rather this Malaysian student is the son of the vice-chancellor of Binary University College.  Now, if the vice-chancellor of Binary University College has to send his son to Melbourne for the latter's tertiary education, how on earth is he going to convince people to study at his university college?  He sure isn't going to convince me.  It's like him inviting people to enrol and study at his college..."Come come come...world class education here...good quality education at Binary"...then when you ask, "Where is your son studying ar?" Ermm...Australia.  One question which I would definitely ask is, "Why isn't your son studying in Binary?"...hypocrite!